Wednesday, January 14, 2009

What is our dream?

Our dream, one of the first things we discussed in the emails we traded before we met, was to have a family someday. As our love grew and we came to realize that we wanted that family together that dream seemed to become more and more real. The dream has been tested and strained and stepped on many times over the last 3 years. When we discovered my premature ovarian failure shortly after getting married in 2006, when we lost the triplets that we conceived with our first IVF attempt due to my immune issues, when our second and third IVF attempts failed, when we went month after month facing BFNs after moving over to surrogacy, and the chemicals that we experienced with our first two BFPs thru surrogacy. After each and every one of these trials we wondered if it was not to be, if we were meant to only be a couple and not a family. We refused to believe it though, we knew that there was a child that was meant to be ours and we had to stick it out so that we could find our way to each other. God is good and our little boy is due to arrive very soon! He is being carried by his wonderful Aunt April, without whom I am not sure if we would have been able to realize our dream to have a family. Her offer to carry a piece of my heart under hers and offer him a safe place to grow until he was ready to join Mama and Daddy out in the world was the point at which our dream started to actually come to life. I still can't believe that any day now (literally, given the number and frequency of contractions!) we will have our little boy and we will finally be a family.

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